Today's Not A Good Day

I made her cry today.

When she cried, you gave me the look.

As if I was the one entirely at fault.

• Was it my fault?

• Was it my fault for being the 'submittor' of the damn thing?

• Was it my fault for submitting the damn thing before she could hand hers to me?

• Was it my fault for not waiting?

• Was it my fault that I made her cry?

• Was I being ignorant?

• Was it my fault for keeping my mouth shut when she cried?

• Was it my fault for all that happened just now?

This is how I look at it.

• I was unwillingly chosen to be the one who's going to submit the damn thing.

• I DO NOT like keeping other people's work. I think I've made the right choice by submitting the damn thing a.s.a.p.

• Why didn't she print her work earlier? 

• She could always submit it herself.

• I was just telling her what I felt.

• I have my issues too. Do you understand my situation? Or are you also being ignorant?

• I blurt out BAD words when I'm angry. Do you still want me to open my mouth?

So, was it really my fault?

I hate the look. 

Would you give her the look if I was the one who cried?

I made my best friend in the world cry today. 

"I am truly sorry." I wish I could say this to her.

I hate to see her cry. 

I hate that I made her cry.

But I would never blame myself entirely for that.

Today is just not a good day!

Note: Entry ini ditulis ketika penulis sedang marah. Entry ini mungkin mengandungi unsur-unsur ego yang ketara. Sorry for that.